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Have some cute baby Maiasauras, I wish I could hug them. Photo by Fernando Losada Rodríguez at the Natural History Museum.

I am very sorry. I am to go to Tenerife for a week tomorrow, but this day hasn’t been feeling good, even on a path to a reset life and I almost don’t feel ready. I caught a virus and I felt cold and cramped in my cozy burrow tent, like a shivering lizard, didn’t come out for an hour, like a fish’s long transition from water to land. When I did come downstairs, I was looking for a good old (and bad-soundproof) flick of evolution or halloween on TV, but I was surrounded by "brain-rotting" shorts almost completely irrelevant and unimaginably unintelligble, I wish I could just block the sight of these gritty shorts from YouTube, especially from the other sides of the palaeontology community. But an even worse blow to my mentality came when I was once again struck with a completely irrelevant video with a thumbnail of a horrifying reconstruction from a person I’ve feared for many years for a bad history I’ve had with him. I will not define it in detail publicly, but I keep seeing this "superpredator" everywhere, and it makes me upset. I don’t think I can browse comfortably anymore, whether for a nice video or palaeoart references, my likings are becoming harder to find, I don’t like the obnoxious humour trending this year (which I am even planning to add a new recommending "rule" against in my server because they don’t get me comfortable and it ruins the old fun calm message board vibe) I’m getting less confident even with my chase, I am basically a species going extinct, might as well be from another time period I can’t adapt away from. I am not sure if I should stay in or leave social media, even for how less prevalent I am on there now. Almost all my current videos I am planning to unlist into a playlist linked in my channel bio (if not the horrific 21st century humour videos private entirely), just like what Carl-Argust W. ("Paleo Edits") did, though that was for copyright reasons. I not only just feel unhappy with them, I am far away from my days as a content creator, and some have been making a misunderstanding about me, such as the more animal fight-related stuff I did back then. I am also very sorry about the holdup with my Allosaurus artwork. I had many events, like Halloween parties, and there was no time to do them straight to the point. I was planning to do them today but the sickness eavesdropped, as very bad is always is the case for me before an exciting occasion. Thank you.